Psych Me Out
Dreamy627
romance
romance
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Stella Lockhart is a beautiful girl who often got made fun of through her childhood for her darker tastes in things. Her parents were addicts of sorts and people picked at her forc...11. Closing
Stella Lockhart
I spent my day off cleaning and doing laundry.
I cleaned my bedding and clothing.
Got it all put in place before doing the dishes and running the dishwasher before mopping the hardwood and vacuuming the carpet.
I rescheduled my appointment with Elias for today since Thursday will be my date with him.
Tomorrow is Luxor.
This was strange.
I felt a bit guilty for seeing more than one man ironically enough.
I don't think I actually processed their relationship either.
So all of it seems unbelievable.
And kissing Micah was the best thing I've done in a very long time.
I'm a mess.
I checked the time, showered and washed all the bad thoughts from me as I got ready.
I pulled on my shoes and left to Berry Blendz, getting myself a smoothie.
I sat in my car for a while before my appointment and sipped my drink.
I was nervous, but not nearly as bad as last Thursday.
I sighed and went inside.
I greeted the desk lady who is always so kind to me as I sat down.
I waited and the girl who came out of his room was giggling as he waved her off.
Then he turned to me.
"Come on in Stella." He nodded.
I stood and walked into his office.
I sat in the large chair as he sat in his spinny chair.
"How are you doing?" He asked.
"Decent."
"How's the insomnia?"
"Less. It's back to how it was before it got worse."
"Good. Anything of concern?"
"Obsessive thoughts. Guilt."
"Mmm alright. Guilt for what?"
I chewed my lip.
"Stop."
I did.
"I'm so used to committing to a singular person that the thought of more overwhelms me. I feel guilty as if it were cheating."
"That's fair. Why do you think you feel this way?"
"Because I can't fully process the relationship without me. Almost like I don't believe it and none of it makes sense." I shrugged.